This poem by Amanda Seales is exactly how I am feeling. It sums up why I don’t write and blog as much as I would love to do. The full poem says “I want to focus on my art but the world keeps distracting me. I have too big a heart to ignore its calamities. I am also too smart to pretend it can’t come after me. Nonetheless, I do my best to make my ancestors proud of me.” There is so much going on, from the regular stress of your 9 to 5, to the constant depressive news. It’s just so much that you hardly get time to spend it on the things that bring you joy. I have talked about this before, I am sure more than once, but it’s a recurring thing for me, because I feel like damn, how do I get off this wheel? How do I find the courage to push past “what’s comfortable?” How do I find the strength to put what I love over all the nonsense and the constant doom and gloom? I honestly can’t believe it’s October ALREADY. I remember so vividly how we were all counting down 2020 and thinking “if we can just get to 2021, everything will fix it self” and yet here we are almost 2 years in and still on the same roller coaster. It can be overwhelming thinking of it all. I am constantly trying to find the time, and remember the light and spark in me so I can keep pursuing the things I love. I love reading, I love writing, I love DJ’ing and I need to push those things to the forefront before anything else to keep my head above the doom and all the distractions in this world. Let’s Talk (again) does anyone else feel burnout? Does anyone else feel like they are not living up to their full potential or letting themselves down by not pursing their dreams? If you do, you are not alone. From Jaime With Love
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